I am not going to lie, I have had it! Some days I just do not know how much more I can take, and I know I am not alone in feeling that way. Everyday, if we dare turn on the news, all we see are people rioting day after day and innocent people being hurt and killed. We read about the horror of human trafficking, the tragic loss of loved ones, the heartbreak of someone getting another cancer diagnosis, and the craziness of the Covid pandemic. I find myself getting mad because I am about to walk in a store and I forgot to grab a mask, so I have to walk back to my car. I find myself angry I have to wear a mask to work. I find myself upset I can’t go back to living like we all did pre-corona virus.
I recently messaged my friend,Donna, and asked her a question. I did not like the heartbreaking answer she gave me, no more than she liked telling me the answer. I said to her if next year turns out like this one I am going to go back to bed and stay. She added, me too and pull the covers over my head. I think we can all relate, so today I decided I needed to get a better attitude and start counting my blessings.
I realize what I should do is be thankful I can walk back to my car when I forget my mask. I should be thankful I have a job. I should be thankful I can still go do things even though we cannot do all we want to these days. I am thankful if next year starts off like this one I have a bed to go crawl back in, and I think I can speak for my friend, Donna, she is thankful for that as well.
It seems like this year has been full of heartache, but I know God is still in control. A lot of evenings I go for a walk. It helps me clear my head and gives me time to process the things I am feeling. The last two nights I have listened to two songs that have really spoke to my heart. One is Jenn Johnson singing “Goodness of God” and the other is “Peace be still” by Hope Darst. It is amazing what music can do for our soul. Sometimes I just want to raise both of my hands and shout while I am walking as I hear the words of these two songs, but I do not want to make my neighbors think I am any crazier than they probably already do! Lol! I love my neighbors!
Back to being serious, I look for brighter days. For days that aren’t so painful. When I hear the words in the song “Goodness of God”, when it says, “His goodness is running after, it’s running after me”, I know in my heart He truly is. He is always chasing after us and wanting to show us His unfailing love, we just need to slow down and let Him wrap His arms around us.
So, if you feel like I do these days and you are just overwhelmed with everything going on, slow down and let God work in your heart. Let Him show you how many things you have to be thankful for. When I think about how good He is to all of us, it changes my attitude.
Lord, please give us all a better attitude and pour out your love on us all. Heal our broken hearts and bless us as only you can. Give us a new perspective so we can face hard time ahead. In your name, Amen.
Digging Deeper 